almost 6 weeks

We are adjusting to the "new normal" at our house. Georgia is such a sweet baby. unless she's hungry or wet, and then she's a real pistol :) that dark hair definitely has some crinkles in it. her eyes are still blue. she's still in newborn clothes right now, but about to outgrow them- her little legs are getting long. she's getting some pudgy cheeks and legs too! oh, how i love baby fat rolls! she started smiling, first at me and then at Jeremy, at a little over 4 weeks old. she loves when you make "oooooo" sounds and tries to make her little mouth form an "o" shape. still not sleeping through the night, hopefully soon. so far we have been very healthy, praise God!
Kaplan is such a boy. he is still busy and into everything. loves video games and books, still not much of an "outdoor" type, but maybe that will change come warmer weather. we've had to deal with a little bit of jealousy and acting out lately. hopefully that's going to get better soon too.
still struggling with being content. still praying to God daily, hourly, sometimes every minute for peace and provision. Only He can calm my anxious heart. I know He has a good plan for us!
i went back to the old house for the first time this past weekend. it tore my heart. i still feel like a failure and it is hard to let go of the dream i had to raise my family in that house. i NEED to let it go!!! praying hard about that one. and struggling with the fact that we will be renting this house for a long time. however, i am thankful to have a decent, warm home to live in. am i worried about impressing people? have i not gotten past that yet? and maybe the fact that this house seems to be bursting at the seams will be an impetus for me to get more organized and get rid of some of the "stuff". my goal is to be content and happy for however long we are here, to make this house a welcoming place for friends and a comfortable haven for my family. i want it to be comfortable and happy!
it is almost time for me to go back to work. also praying for contentedness on that one. i never wanted to be a stay at home mom, and i don't know that i want to give up nursing all together- i just don't want to be tied down to a schedule, i'd rather be prn. Getting our financial life in order is going to be a priority in this coming year.